I don't know what to do anymore. I am so mad at myself. Everything is just kicking my ass right now. One thing I hate is disappointing my dad.. After telling him what I found out will definitely make him upset. UGH. I hate myself so much. I don't know what is wrong with me.. seriously. It's so hard to keep up with everything. I'm slowly losing it and I don't know how to balance anything out anymore. The pressure is slowly building up again. Just when I thought everything was fine, shit goes down hill. I am so tired of knowing I'm not good enough for shit. Everyday something reminds me how I'm not good enough. I'm so tired of this.

God, please help me.