welcome

to the real world where so many people are assholes and f!kced up in the head. choose the wrong thing to do even though doing the right thing isn't so hard. where self inflicted problems occur and theres nobody to blame but yourself. where you've got people you think are your ride or die niggas later finding out you only really have less than the finger count on your right hand. where sometimes you have to deal with your own shit instead of somebody else trying to help you through it. where its hard for you to find your place in this world and all you can do is keep wanting to find it. where dislikes exists and its hard for you to forgive and get moving on. where sometimes you'll be ending up at the right place but wrong ass time. where you've gave up on trying. where you keep thinking you'll never get a break from it all. where youre gonna be satisfied yet still want more. where youre going to be happy but an ounce of stupid will kill your joy. where drifting away from people means that one of you has moved to another planet. where you can't trust nobody and at times maybe not even yourself. where youre going to think nobody else in this world doesn't feel the same way or understand you one bit. the place where your gonna lose yourself. i lied.. maybe this shit aint the real world but i know it has something to do with me.. i can't seem to listen anymore.

sun storm - mac lethal

And I know there's something beautiful within my grasp
And I know I think I'm satisfied but it won't last
And I know to lace my boots up and pick my path
I'll find another rain storm to fill my glass

another day. another chance. another opportunity to change. im sick and tired of constantly beating up myself for all the wrong doings and mistakes i've done. no one else's fault but my own. tired of the heavy hearted feeling and pretending like nothing is happening when i step out the door. it was the past and that's where i'm gonna leave it at.

why dont we fall in love - amerie

So many things I'm goin' through
So much that I wanna do
It startin' to become so clear to me
Tomorrow ain't really guaranteed

differences.

out with the old and in with the new. time to change up some things around here. i've got nothing to lose.