I don't know why I think about this, something that may never even be brought up again. Sometimes I wish it would, but then again I have the whole idea in my head of me backtracking instead of moving forward so I think about what I'd get myself into all over again. BUT then again I begin to think I'm dumb for even thinking about this.. It's one of those worrying about something that probably won't even happen kind of situations. -_- Why am I so complicated.


If you asked, I would.

I suck at life and lately I've just been stuck in a daze. I don't know what to do anymore.

I don't want to be afraid of living life.

O. Gahd. I can't. I just can't. I cannot! adlfkaj






Lol.

I realized friendship is always a factor. Meh. Meep. Moop. Siiiiiiiiiiigh.

Blessed.

Love seeing my friends happy `=)

I wish I had a twitter back in 2010 because it'd help me remember all the good sht I did & keep track of it in my planner but that was a fail. I guess I was having too much fun. 2011 has been good but it doesn't compare to 2010. Even years >>> Odd years. Always! I'm actually about to update this 2011 planner too -_- hmph. S'ok cus memories are memories. Gonna love'em forever.

What a damn, damn shame and waste of so much potential. It's actually really sad to see a person like you to be that kind of person. Too, too sad. You can't help someone who doesn't want to helped and you seem to be quite a perfect example. I'm a bit heart broken for you. Smh, s m h.

Probably had one of the most refreshing conversations today. I don't even remember the last time I had a legit deep conversation with someone. I honestly didn't expect "I'll take the longer way so we could talk more" to turn into a 2+ hour conversation outside my homies house. It's nice to know you're not alone with some things and actually open up for once. Pretty sure I won't be saying whatever was said anytime soon or maybe even ever again. Actually feels like a ton of weight off my shoulders.

*Crossing my fingers* for a lot of things to just go smoothly. Please.

It's just not fair. I am always losing. When WHEN when? I know I deserve something. Seriously..

When's my big break...

& no wonder why the fck people say opposites attract. It's pissing me off because we are pretty much exactly the same and I just want you to do you but you won't and that's just hypocritical of me because I need to do the same thing I want you to do. Omg. I'm gonna hit someone. What am I saying. I hate people. and like. people. MEH.

Thinking of scenarios you know that will never happen.. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me sometimes -_- But I mean like, it is a good passerby and time killer. A girl can only dream... Right?

On the other hand, I need to stop. I always always do this because it's just easier for me to not make things worse / gives me an excuse to get out of it. But. for some reason I don't do it as much? I guess cus maybe this could different. No? Okay. Whatever. Talking out of my ass at 4AM. I mean like, it'd be great. I think? But. I don't know. Real bad, real bad Michael Jackson....falkjfd; I need to stop holding back from things that could actually be something good for me. Finally. Kbye.

Actually. No. It's whatever.

Our conversations aren't that exciting anymore. I guess this is me moving on.

O. I am one certified dumbass. I do not know why the hell I just did that to myself. WHY. Wow. I am an idiot. Just made myself soooo sick it's kind of incredibly ridiculous. I am so stupid. Gonna hit my head against this wall now.

"You deserve an emperor." L m f a o

I hate the heavy hearted feeling. It's just a feeling way too familiar.

When is it my turn to be happy..

Yet again, someone asks what's wrong with me when it comes to relationships. "I don't know what's up with you, I think you're afraid to be in a relationship or you're afraid of commitment or something." That shit sounded way too familiar. It's weird when the same things come from two different people.

And yes, I never think anyone likes me. People are catching on that I always say that about every person, lmao.

Totally sucking at life right now.

Got my first speeding ticket today. Fml! Early sucky bday present to me, eh. MEH.

BRB. Just got my dumb ass self into a sticky sticky S T I C K Y ass situation. I don't know why I always do this to myself. Ferkkkkkkkkk.

& Hereeee it goooes again. Freaking finding every little thing wrong. I hateee when I go thru this.

Soooooo about this FIND weekend we just had.......



Hahahahahhadflkajah. I can't. Raising my arms in the air yet again. I'm pretty sure these random crack ups from thinking about the weekend is gonna last a while. I can't believe the asshole ass move I did either, hahah. Shit. I don't even feel guilty for doing it. Hahaha, oh my gahd.


We're young, we're having fun, so fuuuck it. Live life man.


Looking forward to the whenever I see you this week cus that's gonna be oneee funny, probably awkward, encounter. Hahaalkfjha. Hilarious.

You give me hope that there are still great and different dudes that are worth it out there. I seriously hope your girlfriend is just as fckin great of a person as you are because seriously, in this generation people like you are so hard to find and come across. You're one of the few that really motivate me to become a better person because you are such a genuine person yourself. Thanks mate.

I suck at life. Omgz.

SHITTY MC SHIT SHIT. I seriously want to turn off the world. Like completely mute people and stop time for a few cus I need some peace. lfjaljfdadj