Monday, September 15, 2008

$@!%#

sometimes i wonder why the hell i still put up with you & why we're friends but i still do anyway bcos i think in some deformed way, we need each other someway, somehow. i'm pretty much speaking outta my ass but whatever. i hope you randomly find my blogspot one day and know it's you i'm talking about. imy and i think you should stop thinking so badly about her lately cos i know deep down inside of your nutcase self, you still like/love, whatever you wanna call it, her.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

chasing pavements - adele

it's been a good hour i guess with chasing pavements on straight up rotation with the sounds of IMs in the background too. lol. definitely putting me in that wanting to have a bangin ass life conversation for some reason. i haven't had one in such a long time. well it's not like you can even plan to have one anyway, it just happens spontaneously and that's what i love most about them.

so i'm just sitting here at 328am in this blogging kind of mood. damn i'm still in summer mode & i still will be until i realize it's getting colder. i miss not knowing what day it is & sleeping late on weekdays and getting to sleep in the next day.. so.. i have this friend that i really consider my ride or die nigga. it's pretty ironic cos we really don't talk as often as we want to and don't get to chill cos we're always busy with our own lives but it's the kind of friendship where we know we've got each others back. sometimes friendships aren't always based on how much you talk to someone but how much they've proved to you what friendship really is, is what really matters in the end. it's hard to find good friends sometimes and real niggas who are always gonna be there for you.. but when you do, don't ever pass it up and let them go. you'll never know when you'll find another person like them again. you win some you lose some. people come and unfortunately, they go as well. constant changes happen in friendships happen all the time too and we can't do anything about it.. as much as we want to, we cant.

i hate losing friends, well i dont really think can say that i have but i definitely hate drifting away from people i consider close friends due to whatever kind of reason. hate it when people act different around other people. like when someone gets shady. ugh. don't know why i still put up with it but i guess it's cos i cant deny you're a good friend.. when i think of it i can't believe how much time has passed me by so quickly. my friendships have grown a lot with people and i've definitely grown through a lot of those friendships as well. i never expected my cards to play out like this and wouldn't have ever thought things would go down like how it's been goin down. but it's all good. no regrets. i think its too much for me to think about at once how much change & growth has happened in my life.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

ay bay bay

wdup i don't give a fuck and thats what must be keeping me so high on life lately. my summer was bangin & i'm about to go back to that shitty place in two days.. well technically one. i'm kind of used to waking up early now since i had tennis in the mornings for the last two weeks. so my summer was eventful & kept me occupied so that made me happy. can't believe i'm about to be a junior, high school years have been passin by just like that! anywho's back to summer, i'm gonna miss it.. i didn't get to party hardy as much as i wanted to with my girls but that's okay, whats better than spending time with family! no really, lol. i don't know how this school years gonna be but i'm hoping its gonna be as good as all my other years. they say junior year is your most stressfull year, but i'll make it unstressfull if anything! but yeah i don't know where this is going.. i should go take out my laundry now & load my next batch. i wanna cut my hair btw. liketype shoulder length short but i know i'm gonna end up regretting it, but hey no regrets baby, no regrets right! right, okay whatever i don't know if i'm gonna actually do it lol. & shit i still need to read my summer reading book. haha oh well.