Like a never ending cycle -_-

Do not fuck with me, seriously

I am tired. Emotionally tired. If I had the money, I would have bought myself a ticket out of Jersey and made my way to either Cali or Florida for spring break but I obviously don't have that kind of money. I'm in a dire need of a nice, relaxing vacation. Somewhere to sit back and relax. Take a fuckin breather of all the shit I've been feeling. I am so tired of the bullshit that people bring. I am so sick and tired of myself. I hate having this feeling of self pity. Nobody understands and nobody will probably ever understand the way I feel so why bother even trying to explain to a friend? I'll only be wasting my breath. I'm tired of always worrying about things that do & don't matter. I am always wishing, hoping, wondering, and dreaming but I never have the guts to do what I got to do in reality. I need to find all the confidence I lack so much of.

The shit you say to me has never really phased me because honestly, I really do not give a fck but when you mention something and say it as if I should be insulted? Oh hell no. When shit hits me a bit deeper than usual and picks right at my insecurities.. that shit is a no go. I will not let someone else make me feel as if I am less of a person than I am. I know my own self worth and I don't need anybody else trying to bring me down. I am the only person who will bring myself down because I am the only person who will physically and mentally improve myself on my own time.

I am on my own path of self improvement. I will pave my own way.

14567.) I know that you’ve changed. I know that I’ve changed. I know that there’s nothing to talk about between us anymore. I know that you’ve forgotten about me and our long all-night-talks but I’m not. And I still miss them. I still miss you and in my heart I will always love you. Even though you’re an ass now.

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Um.. kindasortamaybenotreally

This week makes it 3 more months... Fuck son, we're gonna be doin big things soon. So many emotions run through my mind whenever I think about it. Bittersweet, baby.

Usually I'd forget someones face & how they look but I can't seem to get yours out of my head. I sound like such a fruit. Gross. Anyway.. moving on...

It was nice meeting eyes with you multiple times. See you never ever again.. & if I do, I'll try to work some kind of my magic that I lack. How disappointing :(

In less than a month it'll be 5 years... I miss you way too much.

Just another faded memory

And after all this time, you're still my friend. I don't know how you do it but Thanks anyway..

This really sucks

I am no longer letting you bring me down

YLSS Weekend.. let's do disss

Sometimes I feel like I have no friends...

Shopping, I miss you :(

Shut up