Wow, people really don't realize when they something rude, fucked up & annoying. Ugh, seriously now.. Let me seriously go to sleep now before I get heated and say things I'll regret. A big fuck you and middle finger to you, bitch.

Here's to the day that changed everything between us. I'm actually not sick because of this. BYAHHH.

Thanks Michelle! Haha

What were you doing 45 min ago?
- Doing the same thing I'm doing now... wasting my life away on the internet, lol. I still haven't changed out of my work clothes yet.

What will you be doing in 20 min?
Changing & find something small to eat cus I'm starving.

What did you do yesterday?
Sushi, took pictures @ mi casa, & went thrifting with Leanna & Ed. Then Tanisha came over and we ended up watching Splice.

Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?
Yep! Got to sleep in actually.

Have you ever gotten alcohol poisoning?
Thankfully no.

Are you in a good mood right now?
Sure, I'm fine.

Whats the hardest thing you have done all week?
For some reason I can't even remember what I did this week -__-

How did you feel when you woke up today?
Kinda tired and dizzy.

Do you want to see someone at this very moment?
Eh.

Think of the person who has hurt you the most in the past year, who is it?
That's funny because I think today makes a year. Weeeirdd. Anyway, that's a hairflip.

Do you think two people can last forever?
Yup.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
Yeah. Sometimes I forgive to easily.

Last person you talked to on the phone for longer than 5 min?
Ron, I think?

Are you a morning person or night person?
Night!

Did you go out or stay in last night?
Stay in w/ Leanna, Ed, & Tanisha

Who was the last person in your bedroom?
Probably my brother while I was at work.

Are you afraid to tell your true feelings?
No. I can be mad blunt. But maybe if I actually likelike you, I probably would.

Can you honestly say you’re okay right now?
Yep.

What made you upset last?
Hm, I don't remember actually. I don't think I've really been upset in a while.

Where were you yesterday morning?
Running w/ Leanna.

How has this past week been for you?
Good! & it'll be getting better `;D

Do you do your own laundry?
Yep.

Do you currently have a hickey?
Yeah.<< OH YOU BAD MICHELLE! Hahaha. But nope, I don't.

When was the last time you cried really hard?
Hm don't remember. Oh! Coming home from camping cus I got mad emotional when my dad brought up the future.

Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
No. But there are a few girls that know me pretty well. << Word.

Did you ever lose a best friend?
I guess you can say that.

How many piercings do you have?
4.

Who’s the last person that made you smile?
Idk. Probably my co workers cus they're funny.

Do you bump into someone’s arm if you want to hold their hand?
Loool no.

Are you listening to music, if so, what song?
I'm actually not at the moment.

What color shirt are you wearing?
Uh. It's cream. Well I'm wearing a blank tank under since it's a lace see through.

Ever had a near death experience?
Kinda yeah. A fuckin ladder actually fell out of a dudes pickup truck in front of me. Thank God I wasn't too close behind it tho.

Name someone with the same birthday as you?
My nigga Jason.

What do you usually order from McDonald’s?
Ew. I rarely ever eat fast food like that but if I was like dying probably some basic chicken sandwich from the value menu, lmao.

What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Nothing but I'm about to go find something.

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
My first kiss was, hahah.

What is your natural hair color?
Mid/dark brown.

Usually I smile at videos but wow, that one! I barely did. YUCK. TSKTSK. I don't even know why I'm ticked off by it when it has nothing to do with me, lmao.

I currently don't consider you my friend right now. This is retarded. Uh. Yeah. It's probably just the PMS talking.

El Salvadorian & Filipino.. seriously tho. You don't come around people like that... ever, lmao. *SwooOons.

Omg what is going on. LMAO. This is so weird... ldfkjadlfj. I need to stop being weird & awkward and just get my ass to sleep. Excited for my morning run with the papadukez tomorrow, haha.

Hahahahah smiling like a loser ass cheese head. LOL I am so incredibly gay right now.

I'm always attracted to "weirdly attractive" dudes or dudes that I know I'll never be able to see again.. like that guy from the Slum Village concert. Eheheh.

It's been a refreshing week.

I wonder how people get drunk every weekend... People are odd. lol.

Man, you're fuckin annoying.

The art of letting go in bringing You praise.

Sigh. Yet another good weekend. I love these retreats, seriously. There's something about seeing people connecting / reconnecting with God that makes me so emotional that I wanna tear up! Hehe. Anywho's. Seriously a good weekend. Waaaay toooo many good laughs that it's kinda ridiculous. Not even exaggerating when I say that I had an ab work out from laughing so much every single day at the retreat. What I love the most is when you can easily vibe with people that you've never chilled before. I swear it was meant to be that me and the girls I hung out with this weekend were brought together. It's like a giant laugh fest when we're all together. Writing this makes me miss the weekend, lol.

Holla for making new friends during this summer.

I've come to believe that there is seriously something wrong with me.



At least I'll be at YE this weekend. I swear these retreats have perfect timing every year.

The nights when I can have an actual serious conversation never fails to remind me why I'm still here. I see everything everyone else doesn't and it's bittersweet.

The things I would do just to go back in time and see you face to face. To hear your voice on the other side of the telephone. To see you come home from work. To even hear you scolding or yelling at me. To see you watching TV with daddy again. To ask you to go shopping. To just say mommy to you. Not a day goes by I don't ever wish you were still here with us. 6 years and it still hurts like it was yesterday you left us. I hate this. It's not fucking fair. Why. Why me. Why you.