i'm so tired of everything. peoples jokes aren't as funny anymore and they're just getting dull, played out, & to a certain extent.. annoying. i don't know what has been up with me lately but i'm just so tired of it all. i wish you could feel the way i feel. i wish you could realize all the things i've realized lately. but i know i'm the least likely person to change your perspective on things. the last person you'd think to help you out and better yourself for another. i wish i knew what went on in peoples minds. it's probably just me that thinks about it but it's so frustrating to just wonder. wonder what else is going on, what you're thinking, what you're even doing. i feel like i'm too tired to care anymore. things are different and it just seems as if people don't need me anymore so why bother at all right? right.. no need for wasted time in my life

i feel like everyone i get to know is just bullshitting me. i don't like believing people & it gets mad frustrating. i don't like getting too attached to someone cus i know they're not gonna be there forever. i'm so tired of being in the same situations with different people.

i need car insurance already so i can drive around just to think.

sometimes i hate staying at home cus this is the place where all my thoughts just seem to gather & i end up feeling like that. i think of every little thing that's going on in my life, i start over analyzing my situations, and everything just builds up only to sit as heavy weight and burdens on my shoulders. i'm goin out cus i don't feel like dealing with this.