Cracking up to myself as I reflect on 2011 and write my end of the year letter. Hahah, oh man. 2011, it's been real. Can't complain :)

Last one for 2011. Hah

Here’s some weird and personal questions, you down?
Sure.

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed on the lips?
Yeah.

Will you be in a relationship one month from now?
Doubt it.

What about 2?
Probably not? Who knows.

Have you ever been truly in love?
Nah.

Could you go a day not talking to the last person you kissed?
Yeah.

How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
Who keeps count how many times they kiss someone, lmao

Is your room ever clean?
Yup.

Do you drink bottled water?
Yeah.I prefer them.

Honestly, are things going the way you planned?
In some aspects of my life. I'm just going with the flow.

Where did you get the shirt your wearing?
I forgot the name of the store.

Do you hate the last person who called you?
Nope.

What are you listening to at the moment?
Still Got It - Tyga ft Drake

Think back five months ago, what was your relationship status?
Single as a pringle as usual.

Name something you dislike about the day you’re having?
Nothing so far.

If you are being extremely quiet, what does that mean?
Bored. Sleepy. Tired. Annoyed. Shy. Got nothing to say.

Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them?
Sure.

When was the last time you cried?
Probably watching an episode of One Tree Hill lol

Why was that?
^^^

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Prayed.

How would you feel about traveling abroad alone?
Would definitely be a thrilling experience.

Do you currently have feelings for anybody?
Nope. Sht, when do I ever? Haha

Did you mean it when you said “I love you” last?
Of course.

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?
I hope not.

List three things near you:
iPod, fleece blanket, & pillows :)

What was the last thing you watched on the TV?
Ridiculousness is actually on TV right now.

Is your birthday soon?
Nope.

Do you like the color green?
Yeah.

Do you like winter?
Fashion wise but not really the weather.

What are you scared of most?
Not succeeding. Not ending up where I want to be.

Have you ever given out your number and then regretted it?
Yeah, lmao.

Do you curse a lot?
Unfortunately.

Who do you wish was with you at the moment?
My mom.

How many pillows do you sleep with?
A lot!

Are you drunk?
Nopee.

What was the last song you listened to that made you cry?
Songs don't really make me cry.

Name a weird song:
Can't think of one at the moment.

A song you never get sick of:
Sunday Morning - Maroon 5

Your ex REALLY needs you at 3am and you have a way to their house would you go?
Uh, that's awkward.

Could you survive without electricity?
Probably not since I'm so used to it.

Without saying any names what is one thing that you would like to say to someone?
hi dere.

Could you go a month without talking to your best friend?
Definitely don't think so, lol

Are girls too dramatic?
Some.

Does the thought of marriage scare you?
At this age, yeah.

What were the last words you spoke out loud?
I don't remember... I've been home alone so I haven't said anything lol

Would your parents get mad if you got drunk while they were present?
As long as I'm not disgustingly drunk.

Would you date someone who lived in another state?
Nah most likely not.

Where is the person you last texted?
Hm, group message with my girls - I know some of them are either at work or probably home.

Who is someone that you would you do anything for?
Family.

When’s the last time you said you were fine, but really weren’t?
Probably recently, I just don't remember.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Like last week. I had my monthly monster, haha

Who did you spend your summer with last year?
A bunch of people.

What did you wake up to today?
An empty house!

Did you wear what you are wearing today for a specific reason?
I'm still in my bahay clothes.

What was your favorite game as a kid?
Super Mario games!

Did you eat a cookie today?
Nope. Probably later tho.

What was the last thing you ate?
Frosted flakes.

What’s bothering you right now?
Nada.

Have you lost friends in the past year?
Not necessarily, but I've drifted with some.

Ever given your all to someone who walked away?
Nah.

Have you ever laid on a bed and stayed there for no reason?
Yeah probably.

Who was your last text from?
Group message with BBU


Your relationship status?
Single girl swag, haha

Have you ever lost a close friend?
Yup.

What is your current mood?
I'm chillinn.

How many siblings do you have?
2 brothers.

Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Oleen & Nile.

Where do you wish you were right now?
Somewhere warm & tropical!

Have a crazy side?
All girls are bad.

Ever had a near death experience?
Shit was pretty close to a bad accident.

Something you do a lot?
Sleep, lol

Angry at anyone?
Nope.

What’s stopping you from going for the person you like?
Nothing because I don't like anyonee.

What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
Shit, way too many things.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
I think it was my dad.

What is your favorite song?
One of them is Party of Two - Blu & Exile

What are you doing right now?
This & listening to music even tho my tv's on.

Who do you trust right now?
GodFamFriends

Have you kissed someone in the past week?
Yeah.

Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
Kan!

Describe your life in one word?
The gooood life.

Who are you thinking of right now?
No one.

What should you be doing right now?
Writing my end of the year letter for the time capsule.

Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
Cuzzo.

Who was the last person who yelled at you?
Probably my pops.

Do you act differently around the person you like?
I'm probably more shy & watch what I say.

What is your natural hair color?
Dark brown.

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
My cousins.

Who was the last person to make you sad?
Myself.

What do you hear?
Music & the tv.

Is your hair curly or straight?
Asian girl straight.

Has anyone ever called you “scrumptious” before?
Nah I don't think so, lol

Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
Gayyy. lol

Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Si.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yup.

Are you happy with life right now?
Always.

Are you currently jealous?
No reason to be.

What jewelery are you currently wearing?
Earrings.

What were you doing on friday night?
In Nutley bummin out with my cousins.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Don't believe so.

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
I hope not.

Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in right now?
I've been over it.

What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
Gyno appointment for my period, loll

How late did you stay up last night and why?
230AMish? Didn't wanna stay up any longer.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Nope.

I can't believe it's going to be 2012 soon.


alsdkfjalkdjflaj. Liike wutttt.

I am so lost right now.

I love my family. Family forever. COF love. I don't know what I would do without them in my life. This is why I love the holidays.

OH. So that really did happen......





Shit.

Super happy with my grades. Blessssssedd. Cannot wait til tomorrow! Familyyyyy timeeeeee :)

What are you doing​ next weeke​nd?​​​​
The upcoming weekends are filled with family time! So esssited.

Is there​ anyon​e that you care more about​ than yours​elf?​​​​
Yup.

Three​ thing​s you’​​​​re excit​ed about​?​​​​
Finishing up finals, Christmas, 2012! :)

What are you liste​ning to at the momen​t?​​​​
I'm not necessarily listening but my dad's blasting TFC as usual.

Do you like to have long hair or short​ hair?​​​​
Long hair, don't care club.

Do you want to cut your hair?​​​​
Nope, I want it to grow more.

Are you in a good mood?​​​​ If yes, Why?
I'm pretty good. I'm just distracted as hell.

What does it mean when you’​​​​re being​ extre​mely quiet​?​​​​
I'm either being shy, annoyed, or just simply don't have anything to say, lol.

When was the last time you wante​d to punch​ someo​ne in their​ face?​​​​
I don't remember actually.

How many hours​ did you sleep​ last night​?​​​​
6-7?

What is wrong​ with you right​ now?
I keep dozing off whenever I start reading my A&P notes.

Did you ever waste​ too much time on a certa​in boy or girl?​​​​
Kindasortanotreally.

Are you slowl​y drift​ing away from someo​ne?​​​​
You can say that.

Are you waiti​ng for somet​hing?​​​​
A sign.

Do you watch​ “The Hills​”​​​​?​​​​
Nah.

Last CD you Playe​d?​​​​
Usher's confessions album, haha

What are you think​ing about​ right​ now?
If I should go through with it...

Weari​ng any brace​lets?​​​​
Nope.

What were you doing​ at midni​ght last night​?​​​​
Ron stopped by and gave me the JCrew iPhone case I wanted, woowoo

Have you ever gone to a beach​?​​​​
Of course!

What is your favor​ite flavo​r of ice cream​?​​​​
Chocolateee

How long does it take you to get ready​?​​​​
Uh like an hour... lmao

What are you weari​ng?​​​​
Bahay clothes.

Does the futur​e make you nervo​us or excit​ed?​​​​
Definitely both.

When was the last time you smile​d?​​​​
Some time today.

Out of all the people you have kissed, give me the initials of the best kisser.
Hahaha.

So, what if you married the last person you kissed?
No thanks!

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone?
Yup.

What’s something you really want right now?
Breaaaak! & to see my fwiends.

What was the first thing you did this morning?
Check the time.

What is your relationship status?
Single as a pringle.

What did the last text in your inbox say? From Who.
From Jamie- we were talking about how we can't concentrate on studying & can't wait til break.

What was the longest time you’ve wasted on a certain person?
I didn't necessarily waste my time, so whatevs.

Are you listening to music right now?
Nah.

Anyone you would like to get things straight with?
Sure why not, but I could live cus it's not anything serious.

What’s in your purse?
A bunch of girly sht.

Is your name a common name?
I don't think so.

What is your favorite color out of these 5: Green, yellow, blue, pink, or red?
Blue or green, lol. I can never choose.

What are you doing tomorrow?
3 finals :( :( :(

Whats the first thing you did when you opened your eyes today?
Check the time / looked at my phone.

Your ex taps you on the shoulder and says, “I still love you.” You say?
Well this is awkward.

You receive $500 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
I'd shopppp.

Where will you be in an hour?
Probably sitting in the same chair in the dining room, still trying to study.

Someone needs to throw a party because I'm in serious need of a good night out, feeling good w/ good company. I miss my friends!

And of course I come to this.

Maybe not every single thing was addressed, but so far, this is good enough to be at peace with some things that have been bothering me for the past year. Finally got the courage and I'm just glad how it went about. Something's still missing, but I'm satisfied. I'm sure there's more to come.

Another stepping stone to trying to be at peace with / accepting myself. 2012 is looking good to me already.

It's past 1AM and I can honestly say that I had a great day. All I did was go to shepherd's training (for the 4th year in a row, haha) and finish watching season 4 of One Tree Hill.

It's funny because even though I didn't do much and just went out to go to shepherd's training again, I learn something new every year when I do attend it. I love it honestly. We were put in groups today to do a healing workshop and what I really realized after being with my group was that even though we're so different from each other, at the end of the day, a lot of us go through / try to deal with the same struggles and that's what makes us alike in a way. It's kind of amazing.

And with One Tree Hill, I'm souped I finished season 4. I feel like I waste a lot of time watching it, but whatever! Maybe I'm weird, but I really do learn a lot from watching that show. Too many of their episodes are so damn heart tugging and tear jerking. I swear God talks to me through these shows!

Anyway, I just wanted to thank God for a good day and for everything really. I guess I'll study now.

One of those "I only did it because you did it first / before" type thing. Nights like this remind me why we are friends. I honestly don't ever see myself having another friendship like ours.

It's pretty amazing how much my friends inspire and motivate me.

Sigh. I miss my friends. Can someone just throw a huge party so I can see all my friends again `;(

Doing random sht at this time of day when I should be sleeping..

Tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
I'll let you know when I actually start liking someone.

What on your body is hurting or bothering you?
My whole body bothers me actually..

What was your last thought before going to bed last night?
Hm.. I forgot, haha.

What are you listening to?
High - Big Sean is currently playing from my phone.

What’s something you’re not looking forward to?
Exams, ugh! I just want break already.

Where do you think your best friend is right now?
Either still partying, on the way home, at home, or with her boo. lol

Have you kissed anybody in the last 5 days?
Nope.

Sex on the first date?
No thanks.

Kiss on the first date?
Depends how much I'm into you.

Is there one person you want to be with right now?
Sure.. lol

Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
Well this question really just got me thinking.

Is there something you would like to say to someone?
A lot of things.

What are three things you did today?
Arranged room, went shopping w/ Jess, & did my nails.

Would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
Depends on my mood, lol.

What is your favorite kind of gum?
Anything minty is fine or good fruity ones.

Are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?
Nope.

What is on your wrists right now?
Nothing. Should be a tattoo on one of them though.

Do you hate when people call you when you’re sleeping?
Nope.

Ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?
Sure.

Who’s the biggest slut you know?
There's a bunch of those.

Does anyone have strong feelings for you?
Doubt it!

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
Shit happens.

Have you ever wasted your time on someone?
Nah, don't wanna say that.

Can you do the alphabet in sign language?
Nope.

How have you felt today?
Pretty good actually.

You receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
Right now? I'd probably save it cus I don't really need anything.

What is wrong with you right now?
My sleeping pattern and endless thoughts.

Is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?
Why yes, actually.

Would you rather have Starbucks or Jamba Juice right now?
Jamba Juice because I'm craving something sweet!

Why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?
Oh gahd, I never was.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
Some time around 3 or 4AM I think.

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Today.

What were you doing an hour ago?
Doing my nails.

What are you looking forward to in the next month?
Being with family and break!

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
A few things haven't changed, but I definitely have a different mindset.

Are you wearing jeans right now?
Nope.

Are you a patient person?
Most of the time.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
Yeup.

Favorite color?
I like a lot of pretty pastel colors & dark grey/navy blue.

Are you missing someone?
Yup.

Did you have a dream last night?
Yeah, it was weird.

If someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
Uh. Lol.

Do you love anyone who is not related to you?
Yupp.

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Sure, why not.

Do you like meeting new people?
Yup.

Are you afraid of falling in love?
You could say that.

Ever liked someone older than you?
Usually the case.

Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Yeah.. once actually haha.

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
All the time.

Every now & then I still catch myself wishing it was you.

And I still believe that 2010 has been the best. Odd years are booty compared to even years.

I should be feeling guilty for this. I guess I'll just look at it as a way to really get into that fckin head of yours and kinda know what really goes on in there. Omygulay.

Just realized I don't have anyone to complain to. Wow, forever & ever & ever & ever x's infinity alone. Weh! Hah.

Hello, I miss you.

Honestly, at the end of the day, all I simply want is a guy that I can talk to about anything & everything with, without him judging or thinking I'm weird because of the crazy ideas that linger in my mind. A real best guy friend with good conversation, that's all I'm asking for. Is that really hard to find nowadays?



*Sigh.