"just say a little prayer"

must say, life has done it again and threw me off track with another one of those eye opening, good kind of realizations. i must say they are quite beautiful when you least expect them. life's so unpredictable.


on another note, we had those type of convos in the car earlier..
"I feel like i don't deserve my happiness"
"Then that means youre not really happy"
I'm constantly thinking i'm truly happy but i often do question myself.. why am i so happy? i feel like i am happy. i guess i am, but i dont know. wtf am i even saying, haha. maybe deep down inside of me, like way deep down inside of me, im not that happy and life ain't feelin so complete? imu

miss independent - neyo

fuuuuuck that. you are such a waste of time, i don't even bother anymore. so don't give me any bullshit cos there is absolutely no point anymore. peace the fkc out dude.

party girl - janelle monae

life's been good. it's been straight chillin - school. tennis. & looking forward to chilling/relaxing on weekends pretty much. i ain't complainin though cos there really isn't anything to be complaining about. though i am in a party/let's go buck wild mood, lol. but it's all good cos friend's birthdays are coming uppp! yay. speaking of birthdays, mine is coming up in a month & so days. i don't really want anything particular but maybe i'll pull some things outta my ass one of these days when i'm really bored & make a birthday wish list. haha. so lately i really haven't been giving a fkc as much as i thought i would. holla for not giving a fkc & no regrets baby! i should put that as my senior quote next year. lol sikenah, maybe. it makes me happy thinking about it how much idgaf, haha. i'm so gay! but anywho's. school's been the same. annoying ass people in an annoying ass enviornment but i get through with the help of my girls & friendsss. i got picture day on friday. yay for no school thursday & monday. i found out my teacher lives pretty much down the street. how weird is that. haha. other than that, i miss alot of people. i haven't talked to some of my good friends in a while due to school / barely getting to see them. booo. i have yet to catch up with people. toodlez!