-_____- I hate everyone. Please please please please go away. Please stop talking to me. I don't want to fall back to where I was. I just want to get over it already.

Slowly putting myself back together and it feels so good to not feel so bad about shit. I really used to give a fuck, but now I give a fuck less. I really shouldn't be surrounded by things that are unnecessary anyway.

Hanging out with my girls majority of this break has really been exactly what I needed. It couldn't have come around at any better time. I really do forget the stress and bullshit that's been happening to me when I'm with them and I can't be anymore thankful.

Sigh.. Thank You Lord.

Thankful for every little single thing that has ever happened to me. To my family that will always be there thru thick & thin, the friends who have ALWAYS kept it real with me, the ride or dies, the good times, waking up to a new day.. seriously like everything even the fckin downfalls I've ever had & the people who have made me feel like sht or brought me down. Without none of that, I wouldn't be as strong of a person that I am today.

....&Even to you, for giving up on me, for leaving me on the back burner, forgetting about me, and ofcourse the good times we had. You really taught me a lot whether you know it or not and with whatever's been going on, it's really been helping me to forget everything and move on even if it's not what I want but I know that it's best that way.

Too too Blessed & Foreverr Grateful. Thank you Lord.

Through the pain, the suffering, the heartbreaks, the confusion, the distance, the crying, the bitchiness, and the bitterness.... I know, I know, in my heart that there is something great coming along my way and if this is what it takes to be completely, genuinely happy again, then so be it. God wouldn't put you to it if he knew you couldn't get through it. I'll be comin out 10x's stronger & better. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

second worst birthday next to the birthday i found out my mom was diagnosed with cancer. i swear i feel like the world has been hating me for the past 2 weeks. this must be karma for being such a bitter ass bitch or some shit. SMH.




still & always grateful to have another birthday though. Thank You Lord.