Fuck you. You ain't shit

I hate when a dream feels so real. I wake up thinking it actually happened the night before but only to realize that it never did. It's like... false hope. I smile but then I realize it was only just a dream. Shit stinks.

I'll never be good enough..








not even for you.

I think I'm going to end up alone forever...

I miss you. I'm exhausted. I should go study now. Sen10r year is really winding down. It's kind of TOO hot for me. Spring break needs to come faster. I wanna go to the beach. I wanna get tan. I miss talking to you. I'm sick of people's bullshit. I hate looking at myself. Why are people so UGH. I don't get why people act so stupid. I hate my body. I'd like to walk around with a paper bag around my head. My hair needs to grow faster. I want to cut my blonde out. I need a new hairstyle.... Forgive my endless complaining. -_-

/End rant.


In almost a week it'll be 5 years. Where the fuck has the years gone. Why did you have to leave us. so soon. I miss you too fuckin much. I love you too much. Keep watching over us. I wish you were still here.. always.