Sunday, September 7, 2008

chasing pavements - adele

it's been a good hour i guess with chasing pavements on straight up rotation with the sounds of IMs in the background too. lol. definitely putting me in that wanting to have a bangin ass life conversation for some reason. i haven't had one in such a long time. well it's not like you can even plan to have one anyway, it just happens spontaneously and that's what i love most about them.

so i'm just sitting here at 328am in this blogging kind of mood. damn i'm still in summer mode & i still will be until i realize it's getting colder. i miss not knowing what day it is & sleeping late on weekdays and getting to sleep in the next day.. so.. i have this friend that i really consider my ride or die nigga. it's pretty ironic cos we really don't talk as often as we want to and don't get to chill cos we're always busy with our own lives but it's the kind of friendship where we know we've got each others back. sometimes friendships aren't always based on how much you talk to someone but how much they've proved to you what friendship really is, is what really matters in the end. it's hard to find good friends sometimes and real niggas who are always gonna be there for you.. but when you do, don't ever pass it up and let them go. you'll never know when you'll find another person like them again. you win some you lose some. people come and unfortunately, they go as well. constant changes happen in friendships happen all the time too and we can't do anything about it.. as much as we want to, we cant.

i hate losing friends, well i dont really think can say that i have but i definitely hate drifting away from people i consider close friends due to whatever kind of reason. hate it when people act different around other people. like when someone gets shady. ugh. don't know why i still put up with it but i guess it's cos i cant deny you're a good friend.. when i think of it i can't believe how much time has passed me by so quickly. my friendships have grown a lot with people and i've definitely grown through a lot of those friendships as well. i never expected my cards to play out like this and wouldn't have ever thought things would go down like how it's been goin down. but it's all good. no regrets. i think its too much for me to think about at once how much change & growth has happened in my life.

1 comment:

facedownassupxxx said...

this is why i dont think. ignorance is bliss. haha. i love ya bitch. whatever happens happens! its fucking life and we have to deal with it. its nothing but a hairflip. i need a bangin convo asap as well. i wanna have a good cry as well. when are you not busy? let's schedule this haha.